A Journey of Self Discovery

Music is a moral law. It gives soul to the universe, wings to the mind, flight to the imagination, and charm and gaiety to life and to everything.

Plato

I have been exploring different types of music that I have never really given a chance.  For the past week I have been driving around listening to classical music as well as playing various music off of youtube.   So far my favorite thing I have come across is Albinoni- Adagio in g minor.   

A good friend of mine texted me this past week asking me if I had interest in some music I had never heard of.  I told her to go ahead and send it, that I was on a Journey of Self Discovery.  Which really seems to sum it all up. In every aspect of my life I am trying to look deeper within and see what I have passion for.  I am trying to fill my life with things and experiences I love.

 I am trying to figure out all the things I really enjoy and then I plan to do them.  By myself, with my family, with my friends...it doesn't matter to me how I do these things as long as I am out there living. I have spent years of my life sitting on the sidelines and I want to get into the game so to speak. 

I want to know what I love and what I hate.  I don't want to assume I will like or not like something based off someone else's experiences.  I have lived so much of my life listening to other people tell me about amazing things they are doing and encouraging them to go out and do what they love.  Somewhere along the line I forgot to go out and do what I love.  I neglected it so much that I don't even know what I love or what I like even for the most part, but I am starting to learn more about me.

Over the past six weeks I have grown to know that I love photographing nature and writing about it.  I enjoy walking and listening to music of all kinds.  I find comfort in helping the people I love.  I enjoy meeting new people and learning about them.   I still love lemon water.  I find peace in simple things more than I expected to.  The more I learn about myself the less I worry about what I look like, I am so much more focused on who I am instead.  I am ready to start really trying things I don't have a lot of experience in. 

I feel so grateful to have a husband who is completely supportive of helping me figure that out.  I told him I wanted to go out and have new experiences and he encouraged me to go out and have them.  I am signing up for a class to teach me how to crochet as well as an adult art class.  They are offered by the town of Hamlin and are relatively cheap which makes me happy.  The art class is four classes for $35.00 and the crocheting is $25 for 6 sessions.  I am excited because one runs through May and the other runs through June and July.  So I will have a night each week to go learn something new.    I am also still going to the meditation circle each week.  

I have not felt this happy in a really long time.  I feel like I am reconnecting with the path I was always meant to be on and I love it.  Sometimes I stress about the new areas of hair loss that keep popping up.  I have started to allow myself a moment to feel that and except that it bothers me but then to take a deep breath and focus instead on one of the new things I am doing and feeling passionate about.