Day 17 "Secret Sauce"

I am writing this the morning after the 17th day.  I had a bit of rough night last night.  Which isn't too big of a surprise for me because it was....you guessed it, pasta night.  I have pinpointed that that particular meal must be the one I miss the most because I am having the hardest time dealing with it.

I thought I would be a lot better off this time because I had a plan.  I decided I would skip trying any fake pasta vegetable dishes and that I would make a chicken and turn it into chicken parm.  I had already brainstormed the way that I would deal with the fact I couldn't have breading.  I decided I would try to use almond flour and freshly milled almonds and eggs to try to make a crust.  It worked out okay but to be honest it was really dense.  I have some ideas on how I would do it differently next time to make it so it wasn't so heavy and had a bit more flavor.  I am not sure what I was thinking but I didn't even add Italian seasonings to the fake breading I was making so I am not sure what I was expecting.  My sauce tasted delicious to me as always.

After dinner it hit me, of course my sauce tasted delicious like always, I used the same jar sauce I always used, last time I had used sauce from Wegmans that was ingredient friendly..this was not that sauce.  I decided not to be too hard on myself, it was a slip and I am fully aware that as you try to make changes in your lifestyle that mistakes are going to happen.

What I was unprepared for were the cravings that would be sparked.  This was spaghetti sauce I had ingested not a Snickers bar.  With the intense cravings, I decided to do a comparison of Rinaldi sauce and a Snickers bar.  There are 8g of sugar in the sauce and 11g in the candy.  I don't know about you but I am pretty disgusted thinking about it.
It is no wonder  I started thinking of every terrible food that I used to love and couldn't eat.  In my head I contemplated throwing it all away, eating a ton of crap food but I thought of the hair that had began growing on its own and stayed strong. I had some grapes, NOT THE SAME THING!!!

It was also an aha moment for me.  I realized just how absolutely addictive sugar is. I have read a ton of articles about it, but to experience it that way was a real eye opener for me.  I am going to try to stick with my natural sugars that come from fruit and honey.

So I revised my plan for the next time I make sauce to include being careful of the kind of sauce I use.  This is all just a work in progress but I know I can do it.

Progress: Dust yourself off and get up again. back on track
Notes: Sauce is full of sugar dummy (specifically Rinaldi)