Day 23 Riding out the storm

“It is life, I think, to watch the water. A man can learn so many things.” 
― Nicholas Sparks, The Notebook

I am learning for the first time to flow with the emotion of the day, to let it wash over you, to except where you are until you are capable of moving forth from that emotion.  I have spent so many times alone in a room when I was hurting instead of embracing that grief and sadness are just as much a part of me as laughter and happiness.  It isn't something that is meant to be experienced alone.  I don't think any of life is. Our Lady Peace has this song Are You Sad, "Are you sad? Are you locked in your room? Are you holding yourself? You shouldn't be."  I have loved that song since the first time I heard it, but have just recently started to understand that no one should be broken and alone.

In the past when I have gone through hard times I have completely drawn into myself.  It is refreshing to see that when you put yourself out there that people truly can be good and kind.  I have had some different suggestions I have found very helpful.  Thank you all for being there the way you have,

Monday I didn't wake up in the perfect place but by time I had went to bed I had laughed until I cried so it felt like a pretty good day.  I have a bunch of amazing friends and family who check in on me.  They send me things that know will make me laugh and smile.  It truly is helpful.

It was super easy for me to stay on track with eating healthy because I was super busy.  My husband and kids went back to school and work so I was able to catch up on all the house work.  I also had some light grocery shopping and went to see my gram at the home.

I made a roast turkey breast and vegetables for dinner.  I had so many vegetables that I was full most of the night.    I love that I am starting to enjoy all of things I make,  I also love that people are sharing recipes and ideas with me.  I am going to try next week to make cauliflower pizza crust, and a chocolate mousse out of avocado. In fact in my head I have already altered the recipe for the avocado mousse to freeze it in ice cube trays and turn it into ice cream.

After dinner I made brownies with my son, he wanted to practice baking, he is going to be baking a cake at school.  The best part about this was that I wasn't even tempted to have any.  I had treats days earlier but I still wasn't feeling deprived in any way.  Those of you who told me to let myself indulge every once in a while were definitely on the right track!

Progress: Going strong and my mood has lifted